April 2011
14 posts
Best advice I've received in a while.
Try not to worry so much about numbers and enjoy how much healthier you’re getting everyday. It can be difficult but I promise to work harder on appreciating what my body can do instead of focusing on what it isn’t.
I feel like a broken record.
I doubt that last thing anyone wants to hear from me is another rant but it needs to come out. So to spare the people who just want to see fitspo, words of encouragement and diet ideas I’ll tuck the following behind a post cut.
It's really hard to get past using food for a crutch when it's still the only thing that I can depend on to be there.
I’m so embarrassed to admit that after doing so well for the last 3 months I’ve binged 2 days this week. It wasn’t as bad as it use to be. My stomach wasn’t so full that I was painfully stuffed but it was still bad, and my body has been punishing me ever since. Things went a lot better today. I’ve been fighting off a few cravings that were triggered but other then that I think I’m back on track.
I don’t even know why I did it. There really isn’t a good excuse for doing such a thing after all the work I’ve put into my health. Yet one more thing to add to this horrible year’s list of events.
Life thy true name is Irony
I’ve been out of commission for the last few days because I pulled my rotator cuff while stretching it to avoid injuring it. Isn’t that lovely.
I started the Turbo Fire program last week and love it. High power kickboxing set in an energetic atmosphere. Afterwards during the stretching segment they show some new moves that help prevent injury to the shoulder. I’ve been doing kickboxing for over 6 years and have never had a problem until I started these stretches. Maybe this means my muscles were too tight and a strain was inevitable but that doesn’t make it less irritating or painful.
When did we think that this would be easy? We must have been out of our minds.
lovetheburn replied to your post: good or bad - March wrap up
Ug acne is a bitch. I hope you find something that works for you. I do the exact same thing with my sleep. 10 hours is about what i need to be functional. I wonder if it could be from hormone imbalance? I hope we BOTH get this stuff figured out soon.
Thank you, I hope your issues get straightened out as well. At this point I’m 100% sure that it’s my hormones. I’m reconsidering the shots they wanted to put me on in the beginning but at this point I can’t afford them and the check ups, and I wouldn’t dream of asking my mom for help.
I really hope your Iron is just low or that your body needs some extra rest but I’ve been reading that there’s a steep incline of women with hormone imbalances because of all the chemicals and low quality food we’ve been exposed to over a life time. If it progresses (and you can afford it) I’d definitely suggest getting it check out. If nothings wrong at least you’d leave with some peace of mind.
good or bad - March wrap up
I managed to lose…1 pound. Don’t get me wrong, it’s enough to get me to the next mini goal on my list but one pound?! I feel like I let myself and everyone else down. I really gave it my all these last two weeks. I just keep wondering if there was anything I could have done differently and all I can come up with is the 2 new supplements that I’ve been taking. I don’t think I’ll be taking that saw palmetto again. My acne wasn’t cystic like it usually is but instead of a few bad ones just before my period I had lots of mini ones throughout the month. I thought this was was suppose to stop it. If so it’s not working for me and I’d rather deal with a couple each month than a new one every other day, so I think I’m done with it.
I’m still taking the caffeine pills for energy. Even with taking Iron and eating extra leafy greens and red meat I’m still always exhausted. It’s gotten to the point I’m sleeping about 10 hours a day. I’m running out of ideas and there’s no way we can afford a doctor and yet another round of blood work so things are just going to have to work out naturally.
I’m trying really hard to fight off depression. Nothing is going to ruin this faster then falling into a stage of not caring about anything but honestly I don’t know if I can stand another 30 days of hard work and no results. I’m tempted to just go to the store and grab any diet pill I can find. I won’t but it’s very tempting; without a miracle my dream summer may have to have to wait another year. I was really wanting this would be the one when I’d be under 200.
