Transcending Limitations

Lately I keep hearing about how people are trying to get more antioxidants into their diet but don’t realize that a great way is by adding in spices and herbs. Not only is it a great low calorie way to enhance the taste of your food but you’re also adding to the health properties. Of course your meal may not taste great with an entire 1/2 tsp of one of these on just your portion of food (unless you really love that spice) but it gives you an idea of how these spices stack up against popular fruits and vegetables.

1/2 teaspoon Cinnamon = 1/4 cup blueberries
1/2 teaspoon Chili powder = 1/2 cup cantaloupe
1/2 teaspoon Crushed red pepper = 1/4 cup honey melon
1/2 teaspoon Cumin = 1/2 cup pineapple
1/2 teaspoon Oregano = 3 cups freash spinach
1/2 teaspoon Paprika = 1/4 cup green beans
1/2 teaspoon Thyme = 1 medium carrot
1/2 teaspoon Turmeric = 1 cup broccoli

All of my junk food is gone. My brothers have apparently been sneaking the sweets a little at a time whenever no one was around. I know I should be glad it’s gone but it really pisses me off when they do things like this. At the very least they could have asked before they ate it, I would have let them have it. They’re constantly taking things that are mine and then wonder why I have a problem with possessiveness, let alone binge eat. With them around you can either take everything that’s yours or you get nothing. I ended up eating what little was left even though I didn’t even want it. I feel horrible. I crashed from the sugar high and have a horrible headache. I think that from now on I’m send it off with them or giving it away afterward. Being gracious isn’t worth this crap.

Samoas cookies, oatmeal cream pies, chocolate almond bars, and all within one week. This place is a diet landmine just waiting to blow up in my face. I currently have them in a plastic grocery bag at the bottom of the freezer. I just have to keep pushing them deeper and further back and try to forget about their existence.

This month started off really rocky after I had a major upset in late December. My one main goal for the future was more or less derailed thanks to a close friend. I was trying to lose weight while feeling aimless, highly stressed and fighting to keep out of a depression. It’s hard; I’m still struggling to realign my future and to quit filling the void with food. Unfortunately all of this started showing on the scale. My weight slowly crept up over the first three weeks before I managed to get my head on straight.

In the meantime I’ve cast the scale away…again. I don’t want to think about the number right now, I just want to do my best. I bought Jillian’s Blast Fat Boost Metabolism and Yoga Meltdown. This woman is amazing, I don’t think I’ve sweated this much in a while. I even have muscles throbbing that haven’t ached in a long time. I’m making this my do-over toward my very achievable March goal.

I adore a lot of you girls but I had to delete some accounts off my list that were highly triggering. I just can’t follow people who proudly post about purging, abusing pills, and other destructive habits. What makes me more sad is that all of them claimed to not be pro-ana/mia. I hope you all eventually realize how dangerous what you’re doing is and decide to continue on in a healthier and safer manner.

I finally had to go out and get a couple new smaller pairs. I’m so happy about this, I haven’t been seeing much of a difference in the mirror lately so this was a huge boost. I made sure to buy them a bit snug so that they’ll stick around for a while. 

I’ve been wanting to get my hands on this game since it first came out. I have no idea why I waited so long to finally get it. I’ve been playing it every day this week for at least an hour on the intense level. It’s so much fun and doesn’t even feel like a workout, at least not until the next day. I’ve been adding it to my strength training and regular jogging circuit so we’ll see if it aids with my over all toning or if it’s just something fun.

thinspiredeni:

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Tall girls??? 

5’11

5’10.5”

I need more! Preferably with healthy goal weights and more then just thinspo pictures.

This was a fantastic gift from my mom. I learned a lot of new information and had many of my personal theories validated. I may type up some of the information for future posts but for anyone having trouble losing weight on a normal healthy diet this book my give you some new insight and different methods to try. I’m tempted to buy a bunch of copies, highlight key passages and hand them out to family and friends.

I decided to go to bed early last night so that I’d be ready to start today. I’m not making any resolutions this year, just plans.

However I think it was well spent, I wouldn’t take back a single…well maybe less cake. Too sickeningly sweet but I smiled and ate a bit more then I would have liked since they went out of their way to have it made for me. They have never done anything like that before. In spite of my complaining it was a rather decent year but I look forward to making next year even better.

I spazed over nothing. I weighed myself this morning and I’ve lost an additional 4 pounds. So I guess it was water weight. It probably leaked out while I was crying all night.

I need to remember not to be so hard on myself.
Everyone’s still shocked I’ve lost as much as I have this year.

I’ve accomplished a lot in life despite my weight and the only thing holding me back from completing my final goals is losing the extra weight. Can the naysayers claim the same thing?

Adding to this…
What about the people whose lives and health resides in losing the weight? Sometimes weight loss IS the most important thing in your life and sometimes it’s the only thing left. Not everyone is just trying to lose 20 or so vanity pounds.

The scale has finally moved and after 19 days I’m currently just under 240 (that’s a 5lbs loss). So at least the number is finally dropping again. I plan to continue busting ass throughout the month knowing that I’m making some progress again. I know I should be thrilled with the loss, especially after months of nothing, but I can’t help being disappointed by such a small number.

However I have been doing a lot of strength training and it’s a week before my period so maybe I should give myself a break. Muscle and water weight tend to pack on the pounds.

A Tumblr update!

There hasn’t been much to write about since earlier in the month I gave my family my scale to hold onto with instructions that they were not to return it until the 19th. I get one weight in and then have to give it back until my birthday. I can’t even beginning to express what a slave I am to that thing. At least twice a day I look over at where it should be and wish I could check my weight but it’s so hard to push on when you’re not seeing any changes physically or with the numbers. But I feel different this month, usually I’m so emotionally indifferent but lately I’ve been annoyingly chipper, irritable, and easily cry over everything. A positive sign of a hormone surge! Exactly what I’ve been waiting all these months for.

I’ve been taking advantage of the possible swing in my favor; working hard, exorcising at least an hour a day, 6 days a week and sticking rigidly to my diet. I’ve even been baking my holiday cookies all week and never even tasted the batter. I know that seems so masochistic but I love baking, it’s just the goodies don’t return the love. I’m going to give most of them away and save a few of my favorites as a treat later in the month.

It’s been going great so far and the only negative aspect was my older (usually very supportive) brother, who nearly get a baking sheet upside his head. After he noticed my refusal to lick a bit of chocolate off my finger I had to explain that I’m not putting one gram of unnecessary carbs into my body. His retort was that I’m obviously not doing everything I could to lose weight and one bite wouldn’t hurt any real progress. Asshole, it must be nice to be able to lose 10lbs by just cutting out junk food and working out a couple days a week. I hope he never develops a condition that causes him to gain weight eating normally “healthy” foods because I doubt he would be willing to do what I have to.

Anyway, I’ll update on the 19th with my progress.
Good luck to everyone with their Christmas goals!

After a day of eating junk, feeling horrible and wallowing in self-pity I had a long talk with my mom. She had some good points, even though it’s taken me almost 6 years to lose and keep off about 65 pounds I’ve still lost them. It’s not fair that my body is so fucked up but it is and I have to deal with it. That even if I’m not losing at least I’m not gaining and I just need to hold on until I can get enough money together for blood tests and medication. It’s not very consoling but I’m always willing to go the extra mile for my mom.

I’m fighting the urge to get something gooey, decadent, and horrible for me. My brain refused to acknowledge that cheese is an acceptable substitute.

I gave a very glitchy Tumblr a break for a few days and return to missing messages and closed accounts. I must have missed something big.

Yesterday I faced down an early Thanksgiving with my family. I suppose it went well, I didn’t go overboard. Out of habit I tried some of the desserts and I can happily say I found them disgusting. There wasn’t that comforting feeling I use to get when I’d eat them. It makes me feel like I’m finally losing the emotional bond I have with them.

I think I’ve finally recovered from everything. There’s not even snow on the ground yet and I’m already having health problems. All the more reason to stick closely to my diet, get in exorcise and take my vitamins. Although with Thanksgiving next week I’m doubting whether or not I can make much progress before the parade of temptations begins. I’ve already been asked and promised to make baklava. Just the smell of it cooking will be torture.

Luckily my older brother has joining me on my diet. He doesn’t have nearly as much to lose as I do (only 30lbs, I can’t wait until I get say that) but it’ll be nice having him on board. We’re both so competitive and he loses weight easily, so he’ll be a great target to help keep me focused. ♥

My 9 day streak was broke yesterday but at least it was for a good cause. I’ve been sick for a few days and I decided to take a short brake from the diet so that I could recover quicker. I didn’t see a point in dragging out and feeling horrible longer then I have to just because I didn’t want to risk gaining a pound.

I’m so proud of myself. Today is my 6th day of eating well and working out. I know so many people will roll their eyes after reading that but it’s a huge accomplishment for me right now. The last month I couldn’t make it three days without binging but lately I feel like I can make it to the end of the month again. Something I hadn’t done since that long stall.

I’m pretty sure I have a heat rash now. I’ve been using cold compresses, some antibiotic ointment and most of the areas are better. I found more of the bumps on my neck last night, all where the top of the sports bra rubs. So for now I’m going to wear a regular one and stick to walking until it’s healed. All the more reason to make sure you’re wearing one that fits properly.

If anyone knows where you can find sports bras for DD and larger (and isn’t ridiculously over priced) please let me know. I’d like to invest in some larger more comfortable ones.

@lovemeslender & @thinspiredeni Thank you for replying so quickly! I’m going to treat it as a heat rash for now and see if that helps.

Can a sports bra give you a rash? It seems like every time I take mine off I have all these red bumps to deal with shortly afterward but it’s out of control this time. The strange thing is they’re located on my shoulder and chest. They don’t itch, they’re rather large and hot to the touch. I thought it might be the detergent but my clothes and bedding are fine.

I’m just praying they’re not cysts. They can take weeks to go away and are problematic the entire time they’re there.

I put together two kettlebell workouts (1 & 2) from Shape magazine using a dumbbell and threw in a 30 minute jog to finish it. My butt is officially kicked. I don’t think my muscles have burned like this in a long time.

FYI: If you do this with a dumbbell be careful. It’ll be harder to control the weight during some of the moves than if you used the bell like they suggest.

@dreamilyskinny Thank you for your comment. I am starting to feel better, at least enough to say no to the sweets that keep flying under my nose this weekend. In fact I’m going for another walk after I log off Tumblr.

It’s a new month tomorrow! I started a challenge today that will go through the end of November. I seem to do better when I have something to focus on; plus I’m weird and love making graphs and keeping records. I’d like to go straight through Thanksgiving but I don’t know if that will be possible since I still want to make holiday treats for my family and neighbors. Maybe healthier versions? After all do they really need dozens of cookies and pies? I’m thinking smaller plates, smaller assortments and swapping sugar for Splenda in everything that I can. That way even the diabetics can have something nice.

I made myself go for a walk today. I still feel horrible but doing something and feeling bad seems to be the best alternative to just wallowing in misery. It’s getting really cold though so I’ll be pulling the treadmill out soon. I hope it still works after all this time of not being used.

I’ve been skipping over Tumblr a lot lately. There really isn’t much to write about, I’ve been going through a really bad bout of depression and anxiety for the last few weeks. I keep trying to pull myself out of it but I end up slipping back down; which I’m sure is evident with my erratic postings.

It feels like everything is slowly caving in on me and there’s little I can do to stop it. When I set these goals they were about making my life better but lately it seems like everything I’m do is for someone else. I want to regain the control and get back on track but it’s such an uphill struggle.

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does to perfectly healthy, beautifully unique girls.

3rd day back on track and I’m finally feeling better. It will be a long time before I consider eating sugar again and not for such a prolonged time. I’m dreading the upcoming holidays. Why does every major celebration have to revolve around food?