Transcending Limitations

Treated myself to a legal day off the diet. I didn’t have to count my calories or carbs and could have one treat under strict stipulations. No refined sugar, low in starch, and it couldn’t be processed or store bought. If I wanted it I had to make it myself from scratch and no skipping the workout. I realize it doesn’t sound like much but it was a great break from the last 10 days of intense workouts and strict counting. I’ve just about lost all the weight I gained back in January but with 5 days left in the month I doubt I’ll get below 235. It’s a shame I couldn’t get it together sooner so that all this work would be toward my progress rather than getting back to where I was, but at least I got it together.

the-notso-beautifuldisaster:

balancefit:

People who don’t matter only see fat - real, intelligent and equally beautiful people will see your natural beauty, the thing that makes you special.

If their opinion of you changes from fat to thin; do you really want to be friends with that person?
No.

Fuck those people.

      ^^^^ reblogging again for this comment.

Reblogging for the comment. This is exactly the reason I could never date a guy I went to school with. After all the years of harassment to have them suddenly like me because I’m thinner is ridiculous. I have higher standards for myself then someone who bases my worth on my weight. However I do understand where the original commenter was coming from. If you’re truly fat and not just chubby or overweight people are very prone to making snap judgments.

thinksthin:

dmfb:

Well, here’s ONE pound of fat.

Be proud of yourself because that’s pretty awesome.

Let’s do this.

 definitely puts it into perspective!

It’s amazing how quickly people have changed since I first started losing weight. It’s shocking how such a shallow thing can have such an impact on the people around you. I’m getting close to a total loss of 70 pounds (some of these people haven’t seen me since the 298 days) and in the last year I’ve had assholes who had treatment me like crap for years ask if I was dating anyone. I’ve had men hold doors for me when they use to let it hit me. My overweight friends have been very vindictive and often make snide comments. Now this evening I was informed that a close family friend, one who I use to think of as an aunt, has been attempting to sabotage me for months so that her daughter wouldn’t be the fat one. All the while demanding that she diet and lose as much weight as possible. I knew things would be different as I got thinner but I didn’t realize how much people were holding my weight against me or using it to validate themselves. It’s a very disturbing glimpse of the world.

To start with, food should not be treated as a reward. This is what got a lot of us into trouble to start with. Second, even it was it’s not up others to determine when I deserve it.

I’m still trying to get the scale moving again so I switched back to more intense sessions. The last week has been a combination of kickboxing, jogging, strength training and I’ve forced myself to add in a couple rest days. Working out has never been the problem, sometimes it even seems addictive. When I was considered morbidly obese I was speed walking, doing yoga and pilates.

My problem has always been food.

I have so many food intolerance and sensitivities that at this point I’m practically down to meat, vegetables, some fruits, nuts and cheese. Something normally considered a “healthy” food can put weight on me or worse, make me horribly ill. Yet it’s always the foods that I shouldn’t eat that I end up craving and not in a ‘wow that looks good’ way. It’s more like “I must have that this very moment”.

Throughout January I would work really hard but after a few days I’d cave. So far this month I’ve managed to stay on track for 4 days, which doesn’t sound like much, but it feels like another of my mini victories. I’m disappoint that it’s taken banning certain categories of foods from my sight but at the same time I have to do what will make me healthy.

sexyconfidentme:

Has been so tough to calculate because I’m what you would call “big boned” so I have a medium/large frame. I’m so happy I found that link: (http://www.changingshape.com/resources/references/idealbodyweight.asp). My ideal body weight is somewhere between 145-160. I have a ton of muscle. 

Mine is 155-176; I’m glad my expectations are realistic. Sometimes I feel like I’m settling when I see other girls’ goal weights but maybe their frames are just a lot smaller then mine. I can tell from already visible hip and shoulder bones that I definitely have a large frame. Which is so strange since I have such tiny wrists and ankles.