Went a bit overboard with the holidays and my...
However I think it was well spent, I wouldn’t take back a single…well maybe less cake. Too sickeningly sweet but I smiled and ate a bit more then I would have liked since they went out of their way to have it made for me. They have never done anything like that before. In spite of my complaining it was a rather decent year but I look forward to making next year even better.
I spazed over nothing. I weighed myself this morning and I’ve lost an additional 4 pounds. So I guess it was water weight. It probably leaked out while I was crying all night. I need to remember not to be so hard on myself. Everyone’s still shocked I’ve lost as much as I have this year.
People need to stop telling me that there are more...
I’ve accomplished a lot in life despite my weight and the only thing holding me back from completing my final goals is losing the extra weight. Can the naysayers claim the same thing? Adding to this… What about the people whose lives and health resides in losing the weight? Sometimes weight loss IS the most important thing in your life and sometimes it’s the only thing left. Not...
It just feels like it's never enough.
The scale has finally moved and after 19 days I’m currently just under 240 (that’s a 5lbs loss). So at least the number is finally dropping again. I plan to continue busting ass throughout the month knowing that I’m making some progress again. I know I should be thrilled with the loss, especially after months of nothing, but I can’t help being disappointed by such a small...
A Tumblr update! There hasn’t been much to write about since earlier in the month I gave my family my scale to hold onto with instructions that they were not to return it until the 19th. I get one weight in and then have to give it back until my birthday. I can’t even beginning to express what a slave I am to that thing. At least twice a day I look over at where it should be and...
I'm so afraid I'll never reach my goal weight.
After a day of eating junk, feeling horrible and wallowing in self-pity I had a long talk with my mom. She had some good points, even though it’s taken me almost 6 years to lose and keep off about 65 pounds I’ve still lost them. It’s not fair that my body is so fucked up but it is and I have to deal with it. That even if I’m not losing at least I’m not gaining and I...
I've been busting my ass since September and I've...